Well, Danielle is finally married and I can say that my life is starting to fall back into what I guess you could call a normal routine again. Yes I know that it wasn't me getting married but, I had every bit to do with this wedding that a bridesmaid shouldn't have. I never thought that i would miss my "normal" life but its mine and i really missed it while it was tucked away for the last 2 months. There is nothing really new going on here. My FAVORITE holiday is only 20 days away and counting, yes ladies and gentlemen its almost my birthday. I will be 24 years young and i cant wait. this is the only day of the year that i look forward to, that i even make it a birthday week, NICOLEAPOLUZA!!! Its the only time that i really try to make things about me and am ok with it. I am the big sister and have really hard time letting others help me with things and taking time out for me. so this is the one time out of the year that i let others take care of me. I am really excited. For those who know what i have been through, know that this year has not been the greatest year and i am very ready to start a new year with lots of goals(random transition?) so anyways, i dont really have much going on in my life other than making sure to enjoy my life even when its not so great because its the only life i have and i miss is when its not around

Danielles wedding ran very smoothly. I am still very bitter that she and brian danced their first dance as husband and wife to the ONE song that i asked her not to use because i thought that it was a beautiful song that i had as a ringer for "you know who" for almost 4 years, she had a cd of songs and "spend my life" was not on there. I am very hurt by her action and think that she was in the wrong. not only did she use this song but she rubbed it in my face by dancing next to me and telling me, "its MY wedding day get over it" now if you want to tell me that i am in the wrong than dont waste your breath, cause i dont want to hear it, keep it to yourself. I am a music lover and i dont even think that the word lover can even began to explain how i feel about music and for her to do that knowingly well.....

i will post pictures as soon as i get them downloaded

struggles

yes i know its been a whilt since i have posted but things have been so crazy lately, my friend Danielle has set a wedding date and almost everything is done. She has been working very hard on getting everything done and i have been doing my best to be there for whatever she needs me for. I have been having some personal struggles that I will share with the listeners out there....

My first struggle that I have been dealing with would be the personal struggle that I face every morning when the alarm goes off at 5am and i should get up but i snooze the alarm and just wait for it to go off again at 630 when its time to really get up and go to work. i set the alarm so that i can go to the gym, I dont. i have a set of clothes in my locker at work so that i can work out after work, do you think that i go.....definintley NOT. This is something that i have been struggling with since...well forever (see post MY NEMISIS).

My next struggle would be my sunday job. I work in the Nursery at catalina foothills and I pray everyday that God will show me if this is where he wants me to be. I love this job but not the way i use to, there is something different about being there and i'm not sure what it is but i just lack the drive that was once there and most of all i miss being in worship, how will i know when God says, "ok nicole my plan for you is....." if hes talking now, he might want to speak up cause i still cant hear him. i have asked for a month off in October to go to my church and to see if i can hear God more clearly then.

You know the saying we have all said it at least once, there is not enough time in a day, well there is plenty of time in my day i just cant get with the program prioritize my life yet alone one day in it. i have even tried to keep a planner so that i can have everything planned out, well that only works if you use it and write things down in it. DUH!!

I have just been running around like crazy trying to plan a bachleoreet party make the invitations, help danielle move her and brians stuff to the new apartment that is on the other side of the world that only brian will be living in until october, trying to clean my house that my parents will NOT let me throw anything away but they want a clean house, i will never get old people. I'm trying to find time to have my quite time and do my bible study that its getting done while, yes ladies and gentlemen, i sit on the throne(toilet)... while all this is going on do you think that i have had time at all to get my eyebrows waxed?? not a chance......

Drama on the Home front

So friday morning my erica came banging on my door trying to wake me up, it was only 5:45 and I still have 30 minutes to sleep so I open the door and she tells me that I need to move my car so the ambulance can get in easy......yeah ok so my thoughts exactly whats going on??? she said that my nana was screaming and kicking her legs like a wild woman and that she could wake her up. for those of you who don't know my nana she has rhumatoid arthritis and she cant bend her legs or move her neck so her her to be kicking her legs in the air was not normal and she was not responding to any of us. that was so scary so the medic team got here and they took her blood sugar(b.s.) yeah i know funny abbreviations, and it was 56 which is not good, she couldnt respond to us but she said later that she thought that she was. those are definite signs of a diabetic coma. we got to the ER and they checked her bs levels and they were 38. again not good. so we hung out at the hospital until her sugar levels came back up the doctor made her get up and walk and by 12:30 we were back home safe and sound. the dr just wanted us to keep an eye on her while she sleeps and she can't be alone for the next couple of days. she shouldnt be home anyways just in case she falls which has happened before so i guess really nothing new. she is feeling fine and back to her reading and tv watching.....

A Success Story

So this is very exciting for me to start a new blog off and say that this weekend i accomplished something that I'm not sure i wanted to but i did. I went tubing this weekend just like I have for the past 4 years the only thing different this time is that I am the one that has to do everything that "the man" is suppose to. you know like load the ice chest, carry the heavy things and tie all the knots that I thought that I couldnt. going at this trip alone without the help of the "boyfriend" and actually being able to do it and complete it without any mishaps was a great accomplishment for me. I planned the trip and executed it very nicely. It was a great success. This means that i dont need the help of a man although it makes my life a little easier it doesnt mean that it is a must. the only reason i say that i'm not sure that i wanted it is because its scary to know something you have been trying so hard to believe. I wanted to believe that I needed the "G" word but i just let him enable me to find my full potential and i know now that it may have started to be a hinderance.... we anyways.... so we went up tubing at the salt river there was 5 of us all together and we had such a good time. Its nice to just sit it the water and know that you have all the time in the world that you are in no hurry. Vacation is nice. Vacation is a must...things at work were really starting to get to me and i go back to work for 3 days and then off to another trip. Vegas is this coming up weekend, i dont gamble and i dont drink so i'm not sure how its going to be but i just look forward to sleeping in and laying out by the pool there might be some shows for cheep but thats all for now. like always more to come

New Adventures Here I Come

I am not really one for change, but the idea is growing on me. I am heading out to the lake this weekend for FIRST time jet-skiing and water-skiing. So excited. I have been tubing down Salt River tons of times but this is very different, i'm being pulled by a boat and its gonna go super fast and i just cant wait to get out of town and lay out in the sun and in the lake and not go to work no stress just relaxation. Not going to work, sigh, i cant wait. I am so tired of working. When the dr. told me that i needed a few days off of work, i got sick at the thought and now to be off for 4 days is so exciting. i really dont have much to say but i want to take pictures of my new adventures and maybe post them as long as i dont look like a blue whale out there in the lake....