New Adventures Here I Come

I am not really one for change, but the idea is growing on me. I am heading out to the lake this weekend for FIRST time jet-skiing and water-skiing. So excited. I have been tubing down Salt River tons of times but this is very different, i'm being pulled by a boat and its gonna go super fast and i just cant wait to get out of town and lay out in the sun and in the lake and not go to work no stress just relaxation. Not going to work, sigh, i cant wait. I am so tired of working. When the dr. told me that i needed a few days off of work, i got sick at the thought and now to be off for 4 days is so exciting. i really dont have much to say but i want to take pictures of my new adventures and maybe post them as long as i dont look like a blue whale out there in the lake....

My Nemisis

Have you ever been so frustrated that you cry? That has been me, well almost me. I haven't cried but i have been so angry with myself that i have not gone to the gym to work out. I am utterly disgusted with the fact that I dont even fit comfortable in my "once didnt fit, now they fit, oh wait they dont fit again" scrubs. I know that I have nobody to blame but myself cause I am the only one that can control my weight and weather or not I go to the gym. I have no excuses, well I do but nothing good enough that REALLY hinders me from going to the gym. The even worst part is that the gym is at my job. How much easier can i make things for myself and I still dont go, that is just plain lazy if you ask me. I am just so angry at myself and I dont even like to look in mirror now and the way i feel physically is gross too.

So now that I have expressed my frustration, what am i going to do about it?? Good question, I ask myself that everyday when I am trying to put my clothes on the the morning. I can look for the easy way out, try the diet pills, the fad diets, but the right way is always the best way. I need to just get my butt in the gym, i was doing so well and going to the gym actually became an addiction-whoever said that addicts can recover, well i am living proof that they can cause the gym have become my nemisis. I want to be an addict again so I will pray that I can get my act together and GO TO THE GYM!!

An elevator ride

So this morning as I was riding up and down on the broken elevator at work I was thinking(no, i didnt hurt myself) that my life is a little bit like an elevator ride, as i think that my life is on the way up to the top that elevator for no apparent reason, drops down to the basement. this is what the elevators in the hospital do, they really do have a mind of their own, but anyways as you are going back to the top all the people that arent "going where you are going" get off on the other floors.... just some food for thought i guess!