Random Thoughts

ok so today was not the best of days since...well since i got a "lil happier" and i have lots of thoughts today so yes there will be puncuation errors and lots of randomness. somedays i feel like a dog chasing his tail, some times he catches it and then he realizes its not what he wanted but now its always there behind him no matter how hard he tries to get away from it and the cycle continues he chases it, it not what he wants but its still there. i feel like that today. yesterday i felt like "she" has everything that i have to live without. i really would like to move out and i really would like to not be single anymore, sushi sounds good. a vacation to disneyland would always be welcome. do you believe that a person can have more than one soul mate, i love my dog so much that i want to eat him sometimes. the "hot" dr works tomorrow. kids maybe in the far future, i should take a shower, why do guys do the things that they do, i guess that since i am very to the point i expect everyone else to be that way but what i want to know, yes i know that i was going to try and take everything at face value, but let me vent after all this is blogging, but i want to know why he did what he did(all the "hes" in my current life) and then use excuses after what is that all about, i have a very good reason for everything that i have done and if i dont have a good reason you better believe that i will make one up very fast. its amazing the impact one person can have on another. Mandi you have become more of an inspiration to me the more we meet and i get to know you, i admire your love for the lord, your desire to learn more, and the time you take to show me the right path that i should be on, you know that i am trying to find it. (i should be having quiet time). do you ever REALLY get over a person?? i know this is long but like i said i really need to vent. what are the chances that of all the places to eat that he had to be at famous daves tonight, probably cause its called......
do you think that he knows that sometimes he is the reason for my tears does he ever think of me...maybe i should just stop and go finish my study that way well i can not be sad anymore today tomorrow is friday and FRIDAY, FRIDAY, FRIDAY IS MY FAVORITE DAY!!! Danielle maybe we could go out tomorrow???