Well, Danielle is finally married and I can say that my life is starting to fall back into what I guess you could call a normal routine again. Yes I know that it wasn't me getting married but, I had every bit to do with this wedding that a bridesmaid shouldn't have. I never thought that i would miss my "normal" life but its mine and i really missed it while it was tucked away for the last 2 months. There is nothing really new going on here. My FAVORITE holiday is only 20 days away and counting, yes ladies and gentlemen its almost my birthday. I will be 24 years young and i cant wait. this is the only day of the year that i look forward to, that i even make it a birthday week, NICOLEAPOLUZA!!! Its the only time that i really try to make things about me and am ok with it. I am the big sister and have really hard time letting others help me with things and taking time out for me. so this is the one time out of the year that i let others take care of me. I am really excited. For those who know what i have been through, know that this year has not been the greatest year and i am very ready to start a new year with lots of goals(random transition?) so anyways, i dont really have much going on in my life other than making sure to enjoy my life even when its not so great because its the only life i have and i miss is when its not around

Danielles wedding ran very smoothly. I am still very bitter that she and brian danced their first dance as husband and wife to the ONE song that i asked her not to use because i thought that it was a beautiful song that i had as a ringer for "you know who" for almost 4 years, she had a cd of songs and "spend my life" was not on there. I am very hurt by her action and think that she was in the wrong. not only did she use this song but she rubbed it in my face by dancing next to me and telling me, "its MY wedding day get over it" now if you want to tell me that i am in the wrong than dont waste your breath, cause i dont want to hear it, keep it to yourself. I am a music lover and i dont even think that the word lover can even began to explain how i feel about music and for her to do that knowingly well.....

i will post pictures as soon as i get them downloaded