Home.....

Ok so when someone says "Home" what do you think of? maybe the place where you live now, the house that you grew up in, or the town. At this point in my life when someone says "home" i think of a time in my life when i was most happy, when i was most comfortable with myself and the life that i was living. Now do i only wish that i could go back to that place for even one day. just a little insight to my life right now and the deep thoughts that run in and out of my head every day that i dont tell anyone now you know. I have decided that i am going to go on a vacation in april of next year. not just any vacation but a real vacation that i have starting saving and planning for now, well actually yesterday. I want to go to San Francisco. I want to go alone, check me out wanting to do something alone. i want to go and do what i want to do see what i want to see buy what i want to buy eat what i want to eat all the things that you can do when you are alone and you dont have to consider anybody else. this has been a vacation that i want to go on. i wouldnt mind the company but i want this for me. life it seems has not been in my favor lately and things just arent going the way that i had wanted for myself when i was at this stage in my life, but i hold on strong and wait very unpatiently for the blessings that the lord will bestow in my life when hes good and ready, although he knows that i am ready, but the choice is not mine and i will continue to trust and and wait to see what the next chapter holds....