Drama on the Home front

So friday morning my erica came banging on my door trying to wake me up, it was only 5:45 and I still have 30 minutes to sleep so I open the door and she tells me that I need to move my car so the ambulance can get in easy......yeah ok so my thoughts exactly whats going on??? she said that my nana was screaming and kicking her legs like a wild woman and that she could wake her up. for those of you who don't know my nana she has rhumatoid arthritis and she cant bend her legs or move her neck so her her to be kicking her legs in the air was not normal and she was not responding to any of us. that was so scary so the medic team got here and they took her blood sugar(b.s.) yeah i know funny abbreviations, and it was 56 which is not good, she couldnt respond to us but she said later that she thought that she was. those are definite signs of a diabetic coma. we got to the ER and they checked her bs levels and they were 38. again not good. so we hung out at the hospital until her sugar levels came back up the doctor made her get up and walk and by 12:30 we were back home safe and sound. the dr just wanted us to keep an eye on her while she sleeps and she can't be alone for the next couple of days. she shouldnt be home anyways just in case she falls which has happened before so i guess really nothing new. she is feeling fine and back to her reading and tv watching.....

A Success Story

So this is very exciting for me to start a new blog off and say that this weekend i accomplished something that I'm not sure i wanted to but i did. I went tubing this weekend just like I have for the past 4 years the only thing different this time is that I am the one that has to do everything that "the man" is suppose to. you know like load the ice chest, carry the heavy things and tie all the knots that I thought that I couldnt. going at this trip alone without the help of the "boyfriend" and actually being able to do it and complete it without any mishaps was a great accomplishment for me. I planned the trip and executed it very nicely. It was a great success. This means that i dont need the help of a man although it makes my life a little easier it doesnt mean that it is a must. the only reason i say that i'm not sure that i wanted it is because its scary to know something you have been trying so hard to believe. I wanted to believe that I needed the "G" word but i just let him enable me to find my full potential and i know now that it may have started to be a hinderance.... we anyways.... so we went up tubing at the salt river there was 5 of us all together and we had such a good time. Its nice to just sit it the water and know that you have all the time in the world that you are in no hurry. Vacation is nice. Vacation is a must...things at work were really starting to get to me and i go back to work for 3 days and then off to another trip. Vegas is this coming up weekend, i dont gamble and i dont drink so i'm not sure how its going to be but i just look forward to sleeping in and laying out by the pool there might be some shows for cheep but thats all for now. like always more to come

New Adventures Here I Come

I am not really one for change, but the idea is growing on me. I am heading out to the lake this weekend for FIRST time jet-skiing and water-skiing. So excited. I have been tubing down Salt River tons of times but this is very different, i'm being pulled by a boat and its gonna go super fast and i just cant wait to get out of town and lay out in the sun and in the lake and not go to work no stress just relaxation. Not going to work, sigh, i cant wait. I am so tired of working. When the dr. told me that i needed a few days off of work, i got sick at the thought and now to be off for 4 days is so exciting. i really dont have much to say but i want to take pictures of my new adventures and maybe post them as long as i dont look like a blue whale out there in the lake....

My Nemisis

Have you ever been so frustrated that you cry? That has been me, well almost me. I haven't cried but i have been so angry with myself that i have not gone to the gym to work out. I am utterly disgusted with the fact that I dont even fit comfortable in my "once didnt fit, now they fit, oh wait they dont fit again" scrubs. I know that I have nobody to blame but myself cause I am the only one that can control my weight and weather or not I go to the gym. I have no excuses, well I do but nothing good enough that REALLY hinders me from going to the gym. The even worst part is that the gym is at my job. How much easier can i make things for myself and I still dont go, that is just plain lazy if you ask me. I am just so angry at myself and I dont even like to look in mirror now and the way i feel physically is gross too.

So now that I have expressed my frustration, what am i going to do about it?? Good question, I ask myself that everyday when I am trying to put my clothes on the the morning. I can look for the easy way out, try the diet pills, the fad diets, but the right way is always the best way. I need to just get my butt in the gym, i was doing so well and going to the gym actually became an addiction-whoever said that addicts can recover, well i am living proof that they can cause the gym have become my nemisis. I want to be an addict again so I will pray that I can get my act together and GO TO THE GYM!!

An elevator ride

So this morning as I was riding up and down on the broken elevator at work I was thinking(no, i didnt hurt myself) that my life is a little bit like an elevator ride, as i think that my life is on the way up to the top that elevator for no apparent reason, drops down to the basement. this is what the elevators in the hospital do, they really do have a mind of their own, but anyways as you are going back to the top all the people that arent "going where you are going" get off on the other floors.... just some food for thought i guess!